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Robert Walters Sr.

I Awake

I awake in the morning and get out of bed
Another day has passed another one to dread
My life was different just a few years ago
I was proud of what I had and I was on the go
Then one day my way of life came to a halt
Now I would look at everything and find fault
No books or teachings would prepare me for this
A life would be lost that I could not dismiss
The shock the grief the sorrow and despair
Would hit me hard out of thin air
My world once happy is now inside out
All I want to do is to scream and to shout
What did I do wrong to deserve this fate
My son committed suicide he didn't hesitate
I wrack my brain for answer to find
I feel as if I am losing my mind
What did I miss what didn't I see
How could this ever happen to me
I have searched all over looking for a clue
To find an answer for how I lost you
I struggle each day and ask myself why
I find no answers as I begin to cry
The first few months I didn't want to live
Even now I find it hard to forgive
The tears have slowed as time goes on by
Another day has passed and I still don't know why
An answer I search for and will never find
Until I do there will be no peace of mind
The pain lessens and the sorrow I survive
Another day has passed and I am alive
The grief and the sorrow I have found out
To share with others what this is all about
To ease their sorrow and lessen their pain
For we have survived and are not the same

Author: Robert Walters Sr.